Acceptance

Things I'm starting to accept:

1. I don't need to like everything that everyone likes. Sometimes my friends et al do things I find boring, or not interesting, and I don't need to pretend to like it to fit in. Similarly, I don't need to like everything Bren likes all the time. I can be bored with video games once in awhile!
2. I really like getting away and doing things on my own. And being alone for an hour and doing my own thing doesn't have any bearing on a relationship. It's alot healthier that way.
   
3. Noone's perfect. Related to the first two. And no one person can fulfill everything you want. Bren probably won't want to watch Sex and the City with me, can I blame him?

Things I'd like to get better at accepting:

1. Boredom. I hate being bored. I'm bored right now. Work bores me. And believe me, I try to vary things, I listen to NPR and new music and I go to the library quite often, I have origami paper at work, but do I get bored! I can accept being bored with a person sometimes, but being bored for most of the day is not fun. I need to make things more interesting or, you know, do something about it.
2. The time things take to get done - as in, I'm not a famous composer yet (though I did get my recording today), and I'll need a real job for a long time.
3. The fact that when I was a kid, I didn't dream about guys or getting married or having kids. All I thought about was what'd I'd do when I grew up. I used to imagine myself getting interviewed on 60 Minutes for singing; now it's Soundcheck for composing. I should learn about my other life goals and deal with them.

Yes. Last night I went to this amazing tapas place with Swappy, mmm, and now I have a craving for mochi again, as always. I feel "inspired" so to speak to actually work on music tonight. Bren's going to his mom's so it's a good day to do it. Plus, my therapy session this morning didn't suck!

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