Fuzzy

I feel fuzzy. I felt so much yesterday, indeed, and talking to Bren this morning. And as the day goes on I grow more doubtful, confused, annoyed, scared...how do I feel? How do I know what I feel? Etc. Same as before. And now I come home and it's empty again, the second day. And I want him to come home too. If he's gone, here, talking to me or not, cold or warm, he's always in my mind. Pablo and Aud are coming over, so that should be fun. Maybe I just need to learn to be alone. Maybe I just need to learn to trust my feelings some more. Trust your strongest feelings, trust your happiest times. Wouldn't that be wonderful.

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